Friendship forever (?)

Friendship is great and when you become closer friends, it can be even better. But as soon as one of the friends feels more than just friendship for the other person, it gets complicated and it can destroy this great friendship from before.

Friends support each other and help each other, no matter what and especially when you decide to stay friends forever, this can be a hard task. I must admit, it was too hard and too difficult for me. I couldn't make it, I had to surrender to that task!

I don't want pity, but I had to let go the best friend I've ever had. The funny thing about it is that I have never met her in real and that we've only been friend over the internet.

Anyway, I've got to move on. I'm just sorry that I can't be a friend for her, it's simply impossible for me, or at least I feel like it's impossible. I don't know what to do, so I gave up. I know that is cowardice, because she's been there for me too when I was happy and sad and she supported me without hesitation. I admire her for that but have to admit that I'm not that strong!

Well, that was it, my pathetic attempt to have an amazing friend forever. I guess I just don't deserve such an amazing person as my friend in my life, or just not yet. Seems it was not time for that yet. It's time to care about my own life. I should get a life, maybe then I will find a friend and maybe it will be her again, which I highly doubt!

I'm ready to move out, though! Yeah, I want to see this nice flat that I found and if it's good enough, I want to rent it! I don't have high expectations though, it'll be my first own appartment. So yeah, I'm excited and can't wait!

Yeah..

New year, new luck!

Ah yeah, a new post, finally! I have been busy with doing nothing else lately. I'm lazy, I know. Anyway, I am going to London in a few weeks, in seven weeks, to be precise. I'm going to be in London for 12 weeks at a language school to do my proficiency.

Other than that, I'm planning on starting a new study in autumn, called Literary Writing. I hope that I will get accepted for that. Haven't submitted my essay yet, so will do that in the next week or so. First I'll have it read by my uncle though, he's a bit into writing himself, so he can probably help me.

I am excited for London already. Lots of new people to meet and lots of new stuff to learn.

Wish me luck!

My Intuition

Well, usually you talk of the female intuition, because women very often know things that men don't even think of. I think that's because women think differently. I could now go on and write about differencies between men and women, but there are so many books about that topic, I don't wanna bore you with that.

Today was my birthday and it was good. Well, it was nothing special, didn't get many gifts, in fact only one of which I already knew, since I was buying it with my mom. She bought me a new pair of jeans. Later today, my brother visited and then we all went out eating dinner at a restaurant where you get giant pancakes! They are really good! Whenever you're lucky enough to be in Switzerland and visit Kreuzlingen/Constance one day, you really should go there and eat one of these pancakes. DO NOT order salad in advance, except if you only order a small one and a small pancake!

This is the restaurant from outside. It's called "Pfannkuchen", which is the German word for pancake, obviously.

Anyway, the title is My Intuition and today I saw again that I can trust my intuition and my first impression that I get from things and people! When I see that something's strange with people, I know that I won't like them when I get to know them a bit better and that was the case again today.

Fortunately, I do also meet people who I like from the start and whatever happens between them and me or whatever they tell me about them, it won't change my opinion about them, because my intuition tells me that they are great people! That way I met some great friends on the internet and people who are very important to me and I met my girlfriend!

Well, I'm still happy about the changes that I am making and that will come now! I still wanna do that and I hope that this feeling is gonna stay a while! Wish me luck, unless you already have.

Cheery oh

Your feedback ..

.. is always more than welcome ;)

If you think that I could change a few things or how I could improve something, let me know and I will think about it! ^^

Cheers!

First week: Application sent

Yeah, at the moment my life is turning around this one topic; my job career! The application that I wrote the other day is written and even a CV has been done. Today I could post it and it felt good! If I get this job, there will be major changes in my life, because this apprenticeship would be in Zurich, 1 hour away from where I live now.

I will have to think about a place to live there, maybe just for during the week, maybe forever? I don't really know yet and I can't really plan that now, because I don't have the job yet.

Anyway, that's the update of my life. Next week I need to meet a job consulant who may help me looking for other jobs and apprenticeships. I hope that there are more possibilities for me and more places where I could work. I will have to write more applications, more letter, more CVs, but it's worth it. Maybe I will become independent soon, what a good feeling.

I have lived with my mom and my sister for 23 years now. Well, with my sister only 18 years, obviously, but still. It's been a long time and although it's always been a good time, I kind of feel like I want to live on my own now. Maybe the right time has come now. The question is just, am I ready for that change? Somehow I am afraid of big changes, but I know that big changes don't necessarily mean that it becomes worse, no, it may even become much better!

By the way, I also want to thank Nicole for linking me on her blog! She is the FB-friend of mine who writes this fantasy story, Riders of Darith! Thanks Nicky! Hope to catch you soon in the herd again! ;)

So long..

New Gadgets, 25. September

Check out the new gadgets that I've added to my profile here!

On the Playlist you will find songs that I like.
I also added a list of Links that I like and recommend.

I'll try to keep them utd, so have a regular look at these!

Riders of Darith is a story that a FB-friend of mine is writing. She's got a good style, so I suggest you have a look at this as well!

Cheers!

The first step is done: A letter of application is written!

Ah well, I just wrote my first letter of application today! I'm so proud of myself. I haven't written one for a long time. I know, some of you did that long time ago and for you it might not be a big thing, but yeah, for me it kinda is now, the first step in my career and I did it.

Now I need to write a super CV and then mail it to the bookshop! The job's not a job yet though, it's just an apprenticeship so far. When I finished that after 2 years (hopefully), I'll be a bookseller! Well, during this apprenticeship I am gonna write of course and try to sell my stuff to become a famous writer, as planned, in 5 years! Joking, I don't expect it to happen so soon, actually.

I do have one question to this though. How can I make my blog famous? I really would like to reach a big audience. Or is that too demanding?

Tell me if you know the answer!

PS: I am glad that some of you bookmarked my blog here alredy, I feel really flattered! Thanks

First Post

Yay, I got my own blog now, I jumped on the train, late, but I did it! Be proud of me!!

I started writing tales on Human Pets and I was enjoying it a lot, so I thought I might as well start blogging and write funny tales for everyone else on the internet. You don't know what Human Pets is? Visit it here and join in the fun! If you do, visit my page and leave me a nice comment (where you mention that you're from my blog :P)!

So, this is my first post and I wanna welcome you on my page, hope you enjoy your stay! Leave me a nice comment here as well, if you like!

Cheers